I wasn’t going to share, but I have changed my mind. I’m jazzed and have visions of future fabulousness.

June 6th, I joined Weight Watchers. Thursday, I sent a text to K. to let her know I was going to a meeting and would be in later (with all the storms and flooding here, you don’t show up when expected, folks start to wonder if the traveling fishes have swept you away). Going to a meeting. It made me think of when someone goes to a meeting of a support group or counseling for an addiction. In a way, it is like that. I’m curing myself of complacency.

In these four weeks, I’ve given 6.6 pounds back to the cosmos. I’m good with this. It feels real, as if these pounds have moved on with no plans to return. Unlike with diets I’ve tried, the weight loss doesn’t feel ephemeral. Because I’m not dieting (I had a cupcake yesterday, yellow with plenty of chocolate frosting – really, what’s the point if there’s no frosting on a cupcake?), I am not having to struggle. Yes, I am constantly thinking about what I eat and how many points it will count, but this is a good thing – I am eating more vegetables, less fatty stuff, and fewer white starches. I am also walking a couple of times a week which is, sadly, a vast improvement over my physical activity levels of the past few months.

Yes. I’m jazzed.

More news, I have finally made a decision. Ever so slightly in advance of having the situation make my decision for me (which I usually prefer). I am returning to Atlanta . JJ’s baby is due the 21st and I am going to fly home the day I get the call that things are moving. I will hang out at home a few weeks, return to Texas to visit, pick up my stuff, and drive back. The job search will be open to Atlanta, Dallas and Fort Worth. That being said, if you know of any wonderful position out there that needs a person such as myself to fill it, tell me, tell me. I’m not looking forward to prolonged unemployment, so any leads are welcome.

Now that the decision is made, I’m a little sad, a little relieved, and a lot happy. I miss my Atlanta people and very much look forward to being around for the babe’s first few weeks. For now, I am going to enjoy the company of the people I have here.